In The Grip Of Pornography And Masturbation..

Dearest sister in Christ..I was reading your note "How to overcome infatuation, lust , crush" etc
I don't know but I am going through something similar.
I am 15 and I like a guy. I've known him since an year and I met him on Facebook.
My mind is occupied with his thoughts and the Bible has commanded us to love God with all of our HEART, SOUL, MIND AND STRENGTH. . . .I try deactivating my account but then I don't know God has been using my account. It may sound weird but I have been posting notes about Jesus and I have friends who are getting saved. This has kept me from deactivating. The guy I like ..has now started taking God seriously and has started anew and I am glad he's saved....but I'm losing my time with God. Worse I have started returning back to my old sins. I was addicted to something very very shameful. I was addicted to pornography and masturbation. . . I repented but now I am falling again. I need to confess it because it's creating a mess in my heart. I need help and I don't know what to do. Please Please help me...I am ashamed and lost. My heart is dull. It's not responding to God properly. I don't feel loved. Please please help me:(

ANSWER:
My dearest Heavyheart, I'm so touched by this message cos you chose to confide in me and come public with it and I believe this is the work of the Holy Spirit. I truly understand your predicament more than you could ever know because I've passed through the same thing and the blood of Jesus Christ washed me thoroughly clean and I know that if He can do it for me, then He can do it for you too.

When I was younger, I read romantic and erotic novels, watched pornographic films and masturbated too. I prayed and prayed after each shameful act and after a while, I'll return to those sins again. I later realized through the help of the Holy Spirit that I can never do it on my own strength and you can't too.

I handed it over to Him, destroyed all the corrupt Cd's and stopped reading such novels. Anything that made me think bad and corrupt thoughts had to be done away with because the Bible tells us that "To the pure, all things are pure but to the corrupt, all things are corrupt."

The way you confessed and said it out is very encouraging and a slap to the devil. I never told anyone about this testimony because the act is so dirty and shameful but it's only by confessing that we become free and I thank the Holy Spirit for using you to make me proclaim God's saving grace upon my life. My mess has become my message and yours can become your message too if you will give room to the Holy Spirit!

What I'm saying here is that you can't win this battle on your strength but rather, your deliverance comes in Christ. Discard all corrupt things related to pornography and masturbation and tell it to Jesus that you want and truly desire to be washed in His blood, to remove the dullness in your heart and make you feel loved again. He's waiting to hear from you. By the grace of God, you will surely conquer it the way I did for years and still remain a conqueror in Jesus' name, Amen!!

Finally, I purposely left out your likeness for that guy because liking someone is not bad in itself but when they begin to occupy all our thoughts, then they're stealing God's position because only God must dominate our thoughts.

Don't deactivate your account since you feel strongly that God is using it. Keep up the good work and God's blessings will remain your portion.

Remain richly blessed dear..